Seeking a Savior

We all seek a savior, but too often it is outside of us—the Savior in food, in pleasure, in the news or social media, in film or books, in the day to day relationships of our lives. Yet we cannot fathom the Savior within ourselves because it is too personal. There is too much to uncover to see the face of our Savior within, too much responsibility to take upon knowing they are there, but it is not so. What is anything but our belief about it, which informs everything. Let not your mind be vulnerable to seeing truth or light or love outside of you, unless it is a knowing reflection of what is inside. For only then is it true Light, true Love, Truth. Otherwise, it is a dream, a desperate hope that the one who can make everything right is not within reach. Rest assured that your Savior is as near to you as your breath. Nothing required. No “enoughness” needed. Only a willingness to believe that you are deserving of more than you ever gave yourself credit to believe, more than any thought you had about yourself, more than any hug or kiss or word could reveal.

“I am the truth, the way, and the life” is not pointing to a man who can save you, but a reality inside you, already there. Who then is Jesus referring to, if not himself? “I” is not a personal statement, but is said in oneness with God, with the spark of truth in us all. Then why did he not say “you are the truth, the way, and the life”, or “within you, as in me”? Perhaps he did. Perhaps it is already written, or perhaps people were not ready to hear the truth that their Savior is within them. Perhaps Jesus knew such a comment could be misinterpreted as all can be and have been. Can we even trust those who wrote his words down, or that the real meaning of such words were not lost in translation? Can we trust the church and the men who, at the time, made Jesus' words accessible to us all?

I do believe that there is value when we intentionally long for the Savior that we don't yet feel merged with inside ourselves. In this place of prayer and opening, when we see that which we long for in our mind's eye and feel permission to long for it, the expression that comes, the feelings that move through us, bring us closer to being one with that which we long for and may even bring us to the oneness that we yearn for. In that oneness, the image of our Savior disappears, for we are one with them, one with God. Unless we feel one with the Savior inside us, we naturally will see them or long for them outside of us. However, we can learn to utilize this principle of projection in a conscious and healing way. Through projection, we come to see that which we feel separate from, and longing for it, we merge with it, and are thus unified. And so projection of our Savior can help us return to God and to the Truth within us.